Special for my dad...

Today is your birthday..it's been for exactly one year you left us since 20 of march..i really very miss you...i knew that this is not the thing you can decided or control..if i can choose, i will never let you go out on that day...i still remembered that day, you helped me to pay for my D license and when the people asked you whether I'm your 'qin kam' but you told people tat I'm your 'man kam'..you still joke with me that you gonna deduct the money from my salary which will never come true..this is the last conversation I've with you in my whole life...sometimes, i wish thing happen on me rather than you...you will always give the best for me...when anyone in the family scold me or anything, you will be the first one who protect me and comfort me..i still remember that one day i argued with my bro..and i cried in my room...you are the one who knocked my door and talked to me..you said that you're here and asked me not to cry anymore...i really miss the life when you still around..everyday i drove home, i will see your wearing your formal shirt with short pants..busy in the garden..pluck the leaves...mowing the grass...but now, i wont be able to see this happen anymore...why i can only spent 20 years with you??you haven't see me graduate for my pharmacy..i know i have to be tough especially in front of mom...i cannot cry in front of her...my tears are flowing down my cheek now..i know you will always be there for me...and you will always in my heart...i love you, dad....