Sickzzz..

My mood still very down...just don't feel like doing anything..facing my laptop and view the contact list in my msn..trying to find someone to talk with but no one is there..maybe everyone is afraid of me bcoz of my mood..they try to comfort me and cheer me up..but i still unhappy and wanna cry..nvm le..who carezz..

Yesterday nite, i fell sick already..sore throat then followed by cough..i guess it is a package so, maybe later i will get fever and flu..the villa I'm staying now is very nice and big..there are two swimming pools, one for adult * almost 300cm * then another one is for kids..besides that, this villa consists of 7 rooms..of coz i'm staying the master bedroom with my mom...hehe..then ar..the bathroom is damn chun...u can shower under the sun or moon..haha i really love the design of this villa very muchies...mua dream house in the future..haha maybe my future hubby can afford and build one for me..mana tahu..haha too early day dreaming already..too bad i cant upload the pic right now..but dont worry..i will snap a lot of nice pics and post them in my blog and my facebook as well..

Nothing more.

I don't know what to say and do anymore. The thing that I waiting for, I think it won't happen for my entire of life. Still remember my cny resolutions..stay happy and dun cry, please treat me nicely and care me. All these I think I've failed already. I cried all the way driving back to my house just now. I think I'm the one who stubborn for this rel. Maybe what I did, he won't appreciate or maybe not the things he want.

In his heart, I'm always wrong and not good. I knew I did something before but too late. He is no longer the one I knew and the scar will be there forever. The words that hurt me the most is he saying me flirt with other without any prove. Nvm. I feel tired already. I don't wanna play anymore. I'm a loser yet a failure. I shouldn't fall in love and should stays single from now on.

When you love someone more than he or she love you, you will know my feeling right now. I'm not acting pity or whatever. And I don't need anyone to feel pity on me. So, if anyone feel I'm acting, please leave my blog right now.

Maybe I'm not the right gal for him. He won't treat the one he love like this. I hope that he will hate me for the rest of his life. Wish him stay happy and best of luck.

CNY resolutionssss...

Haha..since I am extremely free now, so I come up with my resolutions for this moo moo year...most of the people will list out their resolutions on the beginning of the year which mean new year la..but I kinda different from others...muahaha...

So, my moo moo resolutions are:~~~

~ Study hard for my courses *at least get B's*

~ Want to lose my weight * till 42kg*

~ Don't want to simply think anymore esp negative thinking...*hurt*

~ Make myself look prettier..wakaka I bet many ppls will *rofl*

~ Always stay ^o^ and no more =.= or T.T gal..

~ No more silly things..

And lastly, the things I waiting for I wish it will come true in this moo moo year.

Yaya..I don't wanna get hurt or cry anymore..please treat me nicely and care about me..

CNY eve...

I don't have the mood to celebrate cny this year at all..

Last few years when the cny is around the corner, I will ask money from my dad to buy some new clothes. And my dad will always make me very angry then only willing to give the money to me..*weird weird*..But this scene wont happen in my life anymore. Don't even have the chance to talk with my dad anymore. Last night, I cried a lot until 6am only fall asleep. Special thanks to someone who always on my side and company me when I really very down that time.

Just now, I went to jusco with my nephew..I thought want to buy some shirts and long jeans pants but I can only managed to buy one shirt bcoz all the pants left big size. Again, I saw someone's car. I feel very confused after I bumped with someone and someone's family. Someone just give a smile then just continue shopping. I really feel whether I am just a normal normal frenz. I really don't know.

Am I think too much or I'm just being too sensitive?

Maybe yes. I always like to simply think and only think to the negative side. Even a very very small matter, I will think this and that. Hate to being like tat.

Generally, my blog is a very emo blog. Sorry ya but I don't care much bcoz here the only place I can express and speak out whatever I want except for some P&C stuff.

Bleeebleeeeee~~

Yesterday I not in the mood to blog bcoz I'm very very tired plus let ppl bully le...so, b4 11pm, I already off9 and go to sleepzzz...tried to stop simply think that make my mood bcome more even worse..

hmmm...today, the communication skill was very fun..haha the funniest lecturer in SOP...I guess most of my frenz will agree with what I said...haha...the term he used such as grave yard shift, bs, lcly and etc etc....summore, he allow us to eat and drink whatever in the class but excluding crackers la...wow~~he is much more better than Ms. Penny..compared with last week lecture, that lecturer make us fall asleep but as for today, we laughed throughout the 2 hours class...XD

Looking forward for tml...bcoz I'm gonna make guinea pig satay..haihzz feel sad for them le..but wat to do...muahaha><

happie happie~~

haha..today 3 of us..me, alicia and my darling went to KLCC for the smoking interview thingy...after class, we had to sit Lrt from Bdr Tasik Selatan to Masjid Jamek..from there, we gonna sit monorail to KLCC..when we reached there, my darling pula say wanna go shop shop after the interview stuff...at first, my darling and I thought the interview is like the kind of roadshow we saw in the complex...mana tahu, terkena tipu by alicia pula..need to walk across the road from the klcc to another building..bahayanya..somemore it was damn hot..

Normally, alicia is the one who afraid of sunshine..but demi her sweet sweet, she sacrificed the umbrella for us..haha..for this interview, three of us have to pura-pura act that we are smokers and alicia have to purposely walked to the mamak stall to buy the cigaratte for us...I took the salem menthol and they took the dunhill light..haha pai sea la...after the interview section, each of us get RM 40 as a reward..lolzzz...then someone told me that the Kamal is closed at 5pm..wth..three of us run as fast as we can to the Lrt station and then go to Dang Wangi to sit monorail to Chow Kit..I pula let two of them esp alicia say I demi seseorang pula...when we reached there, the ppl told us that it closed at 8pm...again I kena shoot from them coz of someone told me wrg infomation...haihzz...after bought the katzung's pharmaco, we have to run back to the station again coz it's raining...damn tired le...haha then, we went to sushi king for our dinner..

yaya..I feel happy too bcoz someone is kinda happy today..><

Yippy ya ya~~~

Today I supposed to have meeting with exhibition team for the PHC thingyzz at 1.30pm..so, I had my quick lunch with my primary frenz who just start her first day class in UCSI..haha she study mass comm and I compared her timetable with mine...wth~~~she only need to come for mon,wed, fri and satur...haih..I pula need to go to school from mon to satur..*sObs soBs*..okok come back to the lunchie..I used 15 min to finish my dry pan mee and rushed to the school of pharm..mana tahu..we wait there for about 20 min then only the seniors told us that my beloved one hilang diri..then we walked back to attend our PNS class..haha my frenz and I saw the Mr. Enoch was yawning when he was standing right in front us during the lecture...muahaha...then, the class ended one hour earlier which mean for those who never take malaysian studies including me only attend one hour class...haih purposely drive from my house to school just to attend one hour class...really swt le...After the class, I thought I have to study alone in the library..but at last, alicia stay back with me bcoz she said the weather was damn hot and she lazy to walk back home...haha..we study until 6pm and then, I go walk walk with kok wei, kenneth, winnie and zyang at jusco cheras selatan..haha ^^

Well..something happened on me today and I really feel very happy with it...thx ya..><

8 years back...

Time really won't wait for us and everything is change as we grown up.

Last night, I had gathering with my primary friends at Gilly cafe nearby Leisure mall there. In the afternoon, elaine was still text me and asked me whether still on or not bcoz some of them can't make it and only left 5 of us..haha since I already packed my stuffs and prepared for this gathering, so I just replied..'why not? I don't mind'..then we supposed to be at there at 7pm..but I was late for that and almost 8.45 only reached there..haha but still, I kena shoot from them..I was suprised that there are more than 5 ppls who came for the gathering..*thumb up*..wowsss..among the group, I'm the one who left since junior six and so, most of them never see me for about 8 years ago..haha I like become the watak utama keep took pic with everyone..the most funniest part is, once they saw me, they like keep asking each other 'Is that really sook wei? why now she look totally different compare with last time?'..especially see wan..she said why the way I talk bcome so gentle and softly?she even say..'last time you got baby fat ooo..now dont have already'..

Muahaha..maybe most of my frenz now dont know that..when I was junior 6, I really look very fat and since we are from girl school, we used to talked very loudly and whatever craps including those xxx words that we learnt from our parents..then, we keep talked about those funny stuff we did during primary school..after that, we went to Tai zhi nearby UCSI there for our second round..haha elaine don't want to become the organizer anymore as she said that she's working now and all of us are very free as in we still studying in U..muahaha some suggest that let makes gathering 6 months once then some pula suggest two month once..and I pula suggest no need to be like that..when everyone free, then we can come out anytime..so yin leng and hwee ling pula plan to come out on next week...lolzz...before we went home separately, we took some group photos standing outside of ppl's shop..

I really cant wait for our next gathering bcoz it is really fun and I really love it...and special thz to elaine..XD

Another day...

Today went to library and met amy sitting there alone...first time had lunch with her at library there..both of us ordered dry pan mee but today I never ate finish it..don't know why..ate half then just left it there..I know it seems to be kinda waste but I really can't finish it..then, I asked amy to go play piano with me..haha I taught her few songs which I just learnt it half way only..muahaha...feel pai sea also..today kinda relaxing coz 3pm only have class...guess wat..the communication skills is really really bored which taught by Ms. Penny...this sem have two healthcare subs..*dying*..the class end one hour earlier so again I go curi-curi with my darling to 1st floor and play piano again..wakaka..too bad..my darling want me to teach full canon le..so I think I need to find my si fussss to learn the whole song..><..then the PNS really another sub that need to memorize all the spinal cord,pia mater, CSF and bla bla bla...right now, I still thinking which book should I buy as a reference for each sub esp the pharmaco..troublesome le..aishhhh..no choice..I'm the one who choose this course so bare with it..T-T

Heart broken..

Today another hurt one for me..before I went to sleep, I just hoping that he stop reply me and let it go off like this..when I woke up, I receive a msg from him..he told me that I the one who force him to say that to me..I really don't know..I still ask him for a final time, but he just tried to ignore me and don't answer my question..then after class, we went to alicia's house to celebrate her belated birthday..my mood somehow turned to be ok back..then we went to night market and met until many friends..in my life, I will never thought that I will saw until him at the night market..at that moment, I was just shocked but still have to pretend that I'm nothing..in fact, I really want to faint..why he want to lie me again? If I never go to night market tonight, I guess I will never found out that he lied to me..how come why he promise me and say to me are totally different with what he did? I really don't mind for what he did but I don't like he in front of me say don't like this and that till I believe him..but today I found out that he are lied to me..these few days I had no appetite at all..after that, I never bought any food and just walked back to drive my car..I really want to know the reasons for lying me so that I really can forget him..

My first blog...

Well..today is the second day of my new semester..I cant slept well last night bcoz of something happened and yet, I don't know whether it had already settle or not..so I just woke up, took my bath and then drove to school while my soul is still wondering with the messages..during organic chem II, I tried to focus when Ms. Jessie was teaching in the front of the class..I totally blurred when she threw out some questions which are very simple yet I don't know the answer..then continue with basic medi chem, Dr. Thet already told us when is the quiz and due date for our group assignment..haih 2500 words and presentation also..lecture was so bored and we found that this sub same with healthcare..*yawning*..after class, I went to the library and sitting there alone..actually I wanna to study and revise but my heart seems like flying to some other places..I kept sms-ing and my mood really down..how come someone I knew him so well can just turned to someone who treat me like a strangers? I really don't know. I don't want to be emo gal everyday in the campus. Everyone is care about me but how come the one who I really want wont be there for me or even care me? I really speechless..