Sundaysss or sundaesss...

hehe yesterday got the thought of tidying my room....packing all my A-levels books and put inside my wardrobe where the only place i can found in my room to store my booksss....haha then need to clean up my drawersss...too messy with my accessories (hairbandsss, earringsss, braceletsss and etc etc...)...wat else i still need to do on this fine sunday....yaya need to study for my coming PNS quizz...left two more quizzesss to go...yeah yeah~~~

and ya, i'm kinda feel excited for this whole week...i guess i noe why...muahahaha miss my donkey so muchieeeessss....then tml can go makan makan and walk walk with my super duper D after my class...wakakakaka ^o^

Special for my dad...

Today is your birthday..it's been for exactly one year you left us since 20 of march..i really very miss you...i knew that this is not the thing you can decided or control..if i can choose, i will never let you go out on that day...i still remembered that day, you helped me to pay for my D license and when the people asked you whether I'm your 'qin kam' but you told people tat I'm your 'man kam'..you still joke with me that you gonna deduct the money from my salary which will never come true..this is the last conversation I've with you in my whole life...sometimes, i wish thing happen on me rather than you...you will always give the best for me...when anyone in the family scold me or anything, you will be the first one who protect me and comfort me..i still remember that one day i argued with my bro..and i cried in my room...you are the one who knocked my door and talked to me..you said that you're here and asked me not to cry anymore...i really miss the life when you still around..everyday i drove home, i will see your wearing your formal shirt with short pants..busy in the garden..pluck the leaves...mowing the grass...but now, i wont be able to see this happen anymore...why i can only spent 20 years with you??you haven't see me graduate for my pharmacy..i know i have to be tough especially in front of mom...i cannot cry in front of her...my tears are flowing down my cheek now..i know you will always be there for me...and you will always in my heart...i love you, dad....

Into ashes...

well...I know past few weeks I really tried my best to do what I have to for the seek of something....and the donkey noticed it..I feel glad that it is worth for me to do all these stuffs after all..at least, the donkey in the zoo noticed that while others are just doing their own stuffs and continue their life...but, sometimes I do really think and question myself..'why you have to do these and faces everything by your own'..'why you can only release and express everything that keep deep bottom of your heart once a week?'..last week, I have a thought of giving up while driving back home...never have this kind of thought before...but it happened on last week...

I wonder if I really exhausted with all the reports, assignments, presentation and quizzes as well that lead me to feel this way...every week, there will definitely some surprise for me which make me upset for the whole week... hmmm, I wish there is enough surprise for me and no more f**** in my life~~~

Things that I noticed...

hmm...I've few questions would like to ask even though me myself have my own answer already...i guess i will have two version of answers from you guys...well...let's start~~

1. Normally when a guy talk with a girl, does it mean that the guy is flirting with the girl?

2. How to classify the girl whether she is desperate or so called "cheap"?

3. Who should be the one to take a move, guy or girl?

4. Will you care what people think about you for what you've done?

5. Do you mind if 9 out of 10 peoples are disagree with your decision? Will you just give up or just carry on with what you think is right and feel happy with?

6. Will a guy hugged and kissed a girl if he don't love her?

Exhausted....

this whole week really a tired one for me...i dunno why..no report..no quizzes for this week but yet still soooo tired...yester i cant sleep well...dunno why...pusing kiri then pusing kanan...haizzz...
these few days, i keep simply thing about something..i noe i shouldnt think like tat but...still got tat kind of feeling....haizzz hate to be like tat and i wish i can get rid of this stupid feeling soon...i have to keep remind myself....i guess time will prove everything..and right now, wat i can do is just wait and see what will be going happen next ba...nth much i can do also...sob sob~~

Tata~~~

well...yesterday slept at 12 something and woke up around 10 something...i think this is the longest duration i slept since my class commerce...but still dunno why...feel tired and only if there is nth for me to worry..i guess i will sleep until the max~~force myself to wake up and then, found out that i'm home alone..no wonder the house is so quiet...even de maids also not around..wakakaka...

so, decided to go find my frenz and study at there...mana tau..she fall sick dy..i sitting on de chair and busy with my pharmaco while she sleeping on her bed...*sob sob*..i wish i can sleep until so nyenyak like her...haha after flip and flip my notes, mission failed and I fall asleep....around 4 something, we went to take our brunch at kfc~~~lepas tu, i went back home and go eat bak kut teh with my sis and two monkeys around 7 something...haiz...wei o wei~~u're really dying soon..eat so much....haiz....

alright~~i gonna set up my mind and say tata with yummy yummy foodsss....last but not least, i'm gonna change my lifestyle too start from tomorrow onwardssss~~~>.<

The happiest day for me since that day..v^-^v

wow~~the weather is so nice to sleep with my dear's blanket and hugging my piggy..but some of us who are so-lucky have to go for the patient counselling thingy with Ms. Penny..haha don noe why i kinda love this kind of counselling session like the lecturer give us a scenario and we have to find out the information related with the drugs and disease...haha today, i act as a pharmacist and consult the patient who have erectile dysfunction problems and hypertension..so last nite, my brain is all about the viagra and verapamil ( drugs for HBP) thingy~~~wakakaka luckily Ms. Penny didnt comment much but advice me to conclude all the drugs info into few sentences b4 ended the talk with the patient...haha she said,' you cannot expect the patient to remember so many info about the drugs'...so i'm gonna try to improve my counselling skill in my real practical session..^^

then, planned to have my break at old town...haha mana tau...i misunderstood someone..tot someone is making fun with me again...lmao~~~after tat, we went to mid valley and had our brunchie with group of frenz~~~lepas tu, bersinggah at borders for one hours..tgk sini tgk sana...akhirnya, someone managed to buy a book...wakakaka the history of medicine....we walked from gardens to mid valley and then from mid valley back to gardens...

hehe then i get something special from someone~~haha love it so muchie...^@^

upside downie...

today...finished my class as usual...but don't noe why my feeling is kinda weird weird...not bcoz of someone...when i passed by the G floor, i saw someone busy on the phone..i guess he nvr see until me...huh..back to my feeling..i think my feeling turn to be like this when Dr. Thet told us that we can check our quiz results either this evening at 5pm or tml..b4 she ended the announcement, she said..'you guys will be shock when you check your results later'..haizzz...this make me feel so nervous and worry...i think i will be one of them who fail for de quiz...

now, another quiz on thurs...which i cant concentrate in the revision...keep worry about the med chem results...i noe once you passed up the paper, you had nth to do with it anymore and just accept it once the results release...T.T

what should i do now........i have to forget anything bout the result and 100% focus on my revision for the coming quiz.....

Privacy..........

I wish I have my own room so that i can study till how late I wanna...
I dont understand why ppl can be so inconsiderate...
I really feel very tired...
Why i have to tolerate with you since this room is mine?????
I want to listen song while study...is my own business and none of your business...
I really feel wanna shout out loud in the midnight...
None of you will understand my feeling of stayin up late...
I really dunno what to say anymore...
Please dont ever try to challenge me when I really freaking tired and frustrated..
Now, i really understand how you guys feel when you are studying and that ppl turned on the music loudly.........

Kenangan terindah..

Aku yang lemah tanpamu
Aku yang rentan karena
cinta yang tlah hilang darimu
yang mampu menyanjungku

Selama mata terbuka
Sampai jantung tak berdetak
selama itu pun
aku mampu tuk mengenangmu

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Bagiku, kau lah cinta sejati

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Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau kenangan
Yang terindah dalam hidupku
Namun takkan mudah bagiku
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