h@pp!e BiRthd@y tO my d3aR......

today my mood kinda good~~~

just sat for my med chemie quizzz...not enough time for me to write...some questions macam same aje...so just simply hentam la...haha...steric shield effect, stereoelectronic modification,disjunctive approaches and bla bla bla...just assume myself did charity today bcoz i donate so many marks for the paper~~~

once the clock struck 3pm...haha tak peduli the paper anymore...my brain only think what am i going to order for my steamieboat...><

well..our class ended at 6pm...9 of us..me, alicia, hui chin, chee ming, phyllis, chiew sia, tze ying, kah keet and zhan yit went to the steamieboat nearby midah there...the first time all of us gather and go for dinner...haha bagus juga...lagipun, actually we wanna celebrate hui chin's birthday which is suppose to be on tomolo...kasihan mereka that need to sit mid term for m'sian study on satur...muahahaha....

Tiredzzzzzz..............

My mind is so kelam-kabut now...
Mentally and physically tired....
I feel wanna go and sleep...but I can't...
My med chem quiz on thursday...
But..I still go lepak-lepak till so late only go home...
Don't care le...again never eat for my dinner...
Lack of energy already...
I can feel everything I do now is terlantun balik...

Speechless...

I really feel very tired..
Mentally and physically tired..
The first time I dont feel wanna find ppl to express my feeling..dont want to talk with anyone..
I dont know anything go wrong with me..
I just wanna try to hide and keep everything inside my heart..
I dont want to care and think how ppl might think of me..
Why I have to care his feeling and accept everything of him but he is not?
I tried very hard but still no one is satisfied with me..
Why ar?? I should ask myself.
Just want to lock myself in the room and listen to jacky's songs.
The only way to make me feel better.
And the only way that make me flask back about the past.

Extremely tired.

The worst valentine day in my life..

Guess what..someone give me a big present to me as a valentine gift..I cried the whole night..I just dont feel like do anything..my mind is freaking upset and simply think..I dont know what happen to myself..can suddenly feel dizzy and then my vision can be black out...maybe due to blood level sugar low..last time, I did experienced borderline anemia...tak ape le..no one will care..dun feel like eating also..today, i just ate my break+lunch+dinner at 7 something..nvm le..I should accept it..

Distance...

These few weeks don't know why..I feel there is a distance between me and someone..the distance I mean here is not like never seeing each other often or talk with each other..*sigh*..is like I feel that someone is changing from one day to another day...I guess maybe the status or things that someone is looking for...somehow, I felt happy and glad to see someone is able do things well and his capability..I really feel proud of someone..but on the other side, me myself notice the distance or barrier that slowly build between us..I really feel very upset and I know that nothing can be done for this..because someone had chose the way of he want for his career and I don't have such a right to stop someone from doing that..only if I have this right, I think I won't do that too..I don't wanna be selfish..the decision is on my hand..just depend on me whether want to continue be like that or just let it be..I really don't know..for now, I just want someone to be happy..that's all..

Week 4...

omg~~still got few more weeks to go then I have to sit for 6 quizzes...haih I still haven't do any revision for what I had learned in the lecture yet...still play and play...then if I not mistaken, I have three more assignmentss to do; one for medi chem *none of us jot down the title*, biostatics (awareness of breast cancer and prevention strategy bla bla bla...) and lastly, com skills which the lecturers still discussing the title they should assign for us to do...haih still got reportzz somemore....luckily there is only 3 sub have lab experiments...

argghhh....have to concentrate in my study jor..no more play play..haha i think fri and satur only can rest ba...gonna start my pharmaco notess dy...jia you jia you~~~<~oo~>

Try not to be emo anymore~~

hehe...today i never cry oh..first time never cry in front of someone...wakaka...big gal already luu..actually, nothing to cry wan..just sometimes feel sad when repeat asking the same questions again and again..haha i love spending time with someone after my class...wakaka..but somehow..we can only spend few hours then i gotta go home already due to some reasons...someone told me something..at first, i felt disappointed because the day i wanna spend with..someone is not free..wat to do le..nvm lore...study go first...i think i understand someone de...think to a brighter side ba...this year cannot then ma next year lore...haha but still, i hoping something will happen on next saturday...wakaka..someone lecture me a lot today...i guess someone is just care bout me..if not, someone wouldnt give a d*** on what i did and how ppl treat me...*winkwink*..kena lecture but feel happy pula...sot sot dy...wakaka...i think too many "some" in this post...u guys maybe confused what am i trying to say...haha tak ape le..janji i know what the craps i'm saying and how my heart feel then can already..muahahaha~~~

bla bla black sheep~~

hmm..I feel a bit relief now..coz just finish my PNS report..haha tml need to pass up, today only pula start to rush...*wakaka* but I still have another pharmaco report need to do..too lazy for now..coz i only slept for 3 hours and keep myself awake until now...haha tml baru buat since the due date is on friday...

haha think until tml 2pm only got class...so happy and relax...but still have to go school by 10am...haha..coz need to print my baby report outzzz..still got wat ya...tml is wednesday...dont noe wanna go pm with alicia or not le...haha maybe she wanna buy vege again...*wakaka*

btw..I'm officially shop until drop liao...half of my pocket money gone jor...*huhuhu*..nvm le..try to eat less and shop less, i guess still can survive till the end of this month de...muahaha..feeling sleepy now..keke..time for me to go oi oi luu...*yawning*..mite mite^^