Sickzzz..

My mood still very down...just don't feel like doing anything..facing my laptop and view the contact list in my msn..trying to find someone to talk with but no one is there..maybe everyone is afraid of me bcoz of my mood..they try to comfort me and cheer me up..but i still unhappy and wanna cry..nvm le..who carezz..

Yesterday nite, i fell sick already..sore throat then followed by cough..i guess it is a package so, maybe later i will get fever and flu..the villa I'm staying now is very nice and big..there are two swimming pools, one for adult * almost 300cm * then another one is for kids..besides that, this villa consists of 7 rooms..of coz i'm staying the master bedroom with my mom...hehe..then ar..the bathroom is damn chun...u can shower under the sun or moon..haha i really love the design of this villa very muchies...mua dream house in the future..haha maybe my future hubby can afford and build one for me..mana tahu..haha too early day dreaming already..too bad i cant upload the pic right now..but dont worry..i will snap a lot of nice pics and post them in my blog and my facebook as well..

Nothing more.

I don't know what to say and do anymore. The thing that I waiting for, I think it won't happen for my entire of life. Still remember my cny resolutions..stay happy and dun cry, please treat me nicely and care me. All these I think I've failed already. I cried all the way driving back to my house just now. I think I'm the one who stubborn for this rel. Maybe what I did, he won't appreciate or maybe not the things he want.

In his heart, I'm always wrong and not good. I knew I did something before but too late. He is no longer the one I knew and the scar will be there forever. The words that hurt me the most is he saying me flirt with other without any prove. Nvm. I feel tired already. I don't wanna play anymore. I'm a loser yet a failure. I shouldn't fall in love and should stays single from now on.

When you love someone more than he or she love you, you will know my feeling right now. I'm not acting pity or whatever. And I don't need anyone to feel pity on me. So, if anyone feel I'm acting, please leave my blog right now.

Maybe I'm not the right gal for him. He won't treat the one he love like this. I hope that he will hate me for the rest of his life. Wish him stay happy and best of luck.

CNY resolutionssss...

Haha..since I am extremely free now, so I come up with my resolutions for this moo moo year...most of the people will list out their resolutions on the beginning of the year which mean new year la..but I kinda different from others...muahaha...

So, my moo moo resolutions are:~~~

~ Study hard for my courses *at least get B's*

~ Want to lose my weight * till 42kg*

~ Don't want to simply think anymore esp negative thinking...*hurt*

~ Make myself look prettier..wakaka I bet many ppls will *rofl*

~ Always stay ^o^ and no more =.= or T.T gal..

~ No more silly things..

And lastly, the things I waiting for I wish it will come true in this moo moo year.

Yaya..I don't wanna get hurt or cry anymore..please treat me nicely and care about me..

CNY eve...

I don't have the mood to celebrate cny this year at all..

Last few years when the cny is around the corner, I will ask money from my dad to buy some new clothes. And my dad will always make me very angry then only willing to give the money to me..*weird weird*..But this scene wont happen in my life anymore. Don't even have the chance to talk with my dad anymore. Last night, I cried a lot until 6am only fall asleep. Special thanks to someone who always on my side and company me when I really very down that time.

Just now, I went to jusco with my nephew..I thought want to buy some shirts and long jeans pants but I can only managed to buy one shirt bcoz all the pants left big size. Again, I saw someone's car. I feel very confused after I bumped with someone and someone's family. Someone just give a smile then just continue shopping. I really feel whether I am just a normal normal frenz. I really don't know.

Am I think too much or I'm just being too sensitive?

Maybe yes. I always like to simply think and only think to the negative side. Even a very very small matter, I will think this and that. Hate to being like tat.

Generally, my blog is a very emo blog. Sorry ya but I don't care much bcoz here the only place I can express and speak out whatever I want except for some P&C stuff.

Bleeebleeeeee~~

Yesterday I not in the mood to blog bcoz I'm very very tired plus let ppl bully le...so, b4 11pm, I already off9 and go to sleepzzz...tried to stop simply think that make my mood bcome more even worse..

hmmm...today, the communication skill was very fun..haha the funniest lecturer in SOP...I guess most of my frenz will agree with what I said...haha...the term he used such as grave yard shift, bs, lcly and etc etc....summore, he allow us to eat and drink whatever in the class but excluding crackers la...wow~~he is much more better than Ms. Penny..compared with last week lecture, that lecturer make us fall asleep but as for today, we laughed throughout the 2 hours class...XD

Looking forward for tml...bcoz I'm gonna make guinea pig satay..haihzz feel sad for them le..but wat to do...muahaha><

happie happie~~

haha..today 3 of us..me, alicia and my darling went to KLCC for the smoking interview thingy...after class, we had to sit Lrt from Bdr Tasik Selatan to Masjid Jamek..from there, we gonna sit monorail to KLCC..when we reached there, my darling pula say wanna go shop shop after the interview stuff...at first, my darling and I thought the interview is like the kind of roadshow we saw in the complex...mana tahu, terkena tipu by alicia pula..need to walk across the road from the klcc to another building..bahayanya..somemore it was damn hot..

Normally, alicia is the one who afraid of sunshine..but demi her sweet sweet, she sacrificed the umbrella for us..haha..for this interview, three of us have to pura-pura act that we are smokers and alicia have to purposely walked to the mamak stall to buy the cigaratte for us...I took the salem menthol and they took the dunhill light..haha pai sea la...after the interview section, each of us get RM 40 as a reward..lolzzz...then someone told me that the Kamal is closed at 5pm..wth..three of us run as fast as we can to the Lrt station and then go to Dang Wangi to sit monorail to Chow Kit..I pula let two of them esp alicia say I demi seseorang pula...when we reached there, the ppl told us that it closed at 8pm...again I kena shoot from them coz of someone told me wrg infomation...haihzz...after bought the katzung's pharmaco, we have to run back to the station again coz it's raining...damn tired le...haha then, we went to sushi king for our dinner..

yaya..I feel happy too bcoz someone is kinda happy today..><

Yippy ya ya~~~

Today I supposed to have meeting with exhibition team for the PHC thingyzz at 1.30pm..so, I had my quick lunch with my primary frenz who just start her first day class in UCSI..haha she study mass comm and I compared her timetable with mine...wth~~~she only need to come for mon,wed, fri and satur...haih..I pula need to go to school from mon to satur..*sObs soBs*..okok come back to the lunchie..I used 15 min to finish my dry pan mee and rushed to the school of pharm..mana tahu..we wait there for about 20 min then only the seniors told us that my beloved one hilang diri..then we walked back to attend our PNS class..haha my frenz and I saw the Mr. Enoch was yawning when he was standing right in front us during the lecture...muahaha...then, the class ended one hour earlier which mean for those who never take malaysian studies including me only attend one hour class...haih purposely drive from my house to school just to attend one hour class...really swt le...After the class, I thought I have to study alone in the library..but at last, alicia stay back with me bcoz she said the weather was damn hot and she lazy to walk back home...haha..we study until 6pm and then, I go walk walk with kok wei, kenneth, winnie and zyang at jusco cheras selatan..haha ^^

Well..something happened on me today and I really feel very happy with it...thx ya..><